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di televisi sedang menayangkan iklan bioskop trans tv.
film white chicks kembali ditayangkan setelah jeda..
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sofa motif kotak-kotak disamping kiri saya.
duduk diatasnya sang bebs yang sedikit terlihat tanpa ekspresi.
menonton tayangan televisi dengan tatapan ga jelas..
kehilangan mood-nya dalam menyelesaikan satu proposalnya..
......
saya bertanya.
dia menjawab seadanya.
percakapan terdengar sedikit hambar.
---pause---
bebs. tahukah kamu bahwa saya mendengar suara jangkrik di kejauhan??
krik. krik. krik.
---pause---
malam semakin larut..
mungkin seharusnya saya menekan tombol play kembali..
atau mungkin mem-fwd keadaan ini..
sayayangbingung,
.putt.
The story of a scrambled egg..
Klaxons - It's Not Over Yet
I start. I end.
Yeah, I end what I've started.
But it's not over yet. It's not the ending.
Hello fellas,
It's been ages I haven't posted anything here.
Me, not busy. Me, losing my mood. Me, don't have a will to share anything or everything exactly. With anyone, him include.
Ich spreche Deutsch.
Hahaha. Nicht so gut. Ich hoere, Ich lerne, und da bin ich.
well anyway. I press the next button.
Life's been so slowly. The wheel keeps on turning. But not my life. below standard.
Again. It's not over yet. No dead end.
I struggle. Keep the spirit even the spirit is slowly becoming a ghost.
---turn the playlist---
Rilo Kiley - Does He Love You?
Yeah. Does he love me?
He does. That thought is like a showered plant.
The only problem is that plant hasn't been showered lately.
It showers it self. I did.
Well, everybody shower theirselves, don't they?
He said it's ok if we live in agony.
don't you agree?
I don't. Once we live in agony, that's ok.
I said ok not fine.
The fine thing is we shouldn't live in agony.
I want the bubble is flying high, not burst in the air.
---turn the playlist---
Elliot Smith - The Ballad of Big Nothing
I always like him.
especially when he said "You can do what you want to there's no one to stop you.."
>>forward>>
What's "nothing" anyway?
The emptyness or the non-existence maybe?
then what's existence?
I've had that kind of convy.
amused me. plus.
my brain is too tiny. minus.
I followed the story. I walked slowly.
then I got lost. He doesn't help me, really.
He said it's ok if I didn't find my way.
But I'm not ok, really. Plus I know he's on another way with the beautiful legs.
Does it make me become nothing?
Does it make me feel the emptyness?
Does it make me become the-non-exist?
He doesn't wanna tell me.
Maybe you will.
Anyhow, sorry for the unconvenience of reading. This is a story of a scrambled egg :D
cheers,
.putt.
The story of a scrambled egg..
can anybody really tell me the definition of love is..??
got stuck.
got lost.
started to put my trust.
uhm. it works. it works not.
How long before I get in
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide
Before I know what it feels like?
Where to, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know
How long do I have to climb
Up on the side of this mountain of mine?
Look up, I look up at night
Planets are moving at the speed of light
Climb up, up in the trees
Every chance that you get is a chance you seize
How long am I gonna stand
With my head stuck under the sand?
I’ll start before I can stop
Before I see things the right way up
Coldplay - Speed of Sound
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